Aiyo. I feel very stupid to update 2 blogs le. What can I write here? Any suggestion?
Finally renewed my blog skin.... :)
I Need A Brand New Start!
Job - So far so good. When economy so bad that time, I can still get a job which Saturday Sunday can arrange to work or don't want to work so that I can go church.
Family - Also so far so good. Praying very hard for my parents.
Love - I got the one I love when many still single around me.
Money - Though I don't have much, but enough for me to spend for daily expenses.
Christian Life - Glad that I met God and I have him with me.
Everyday work - go home - work - go church - go home - and work again. I wonder where is my wonderful life? Other than just work, seems like I got nothing I can do. I seriously think I need to plan a trip once in a few months. To a nearby Genting also sounds great right? I think I just need to plan a trip with friends or love one to bring back my motive in my life.
Though saving money is very important, but after you save so much money but not using it, what is the purpose of saving money? For those who are in courtship, they will save money for the wedding. But hey, if don't have that much of money, then plan a small but sweet wedding la. Ya, though wedding is once is your life time, but small also can be unique and memorable one. Why stop yourself from enjoying?
So, for those who read my blog, let's plan a trip together ok? Ya. It's you. Tell me where you want to go. Between, I can get special staff discount for Berjaya Group's Hotels. Penang, Berjaya Hill, Langkawi, Tioman, Singapore also got.
This Is Quite Accurate!
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life:
You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
This is a quiz I found in Sam's blog. At first I thought it is those stupid quiz, all same answers one. But I am wrong. It is quite accurate. You should try this. http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
The Four Blessed Looks!
Look back and "Thank" God.
Look forward and "Trust" God.
Look around and "Serve" God.
Look within and "Find" God!
I asked God, 'How do I get the best out of life?
God said, 'Face your past without regrets. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear!'
Without God, our week is: Mournday, Tearsday, Wasteday, Thirstday, Fightday, Shatterday and Sinday. So, allow Him to be with you every day!
Life is short, so forgive quickly. Believe slowly. Love truly. Laugh uncontrollably. Never regret anything that makes you happy. And have a wonderful journey.
* I got this e-mail from my colleague. Let us do all this and have a wonderful journey.
Must Be Faithful To God!
We must have faith in God. Sometimes you will be wondering, why doesn't God give me that which I want it so much. If God loves me, He should give me the thing I want.
Don't ever question God. God has His plan for everyone of us, and God will always give us the best. God loves us that He sent his only son Jesus Christ to die for us, so do you still think he will be selfish to give you what you want? God always has His reasons in doing and planning everything for us. God doesn't give you the thing you want at that moment, maybe it is because it is not the right moment yet or it is not the best thing for you.
God will always give the best for us, but sometimes we just have to wait and continue to have faith in Him. When you start to blame God, why don't you trust God and wait together with God and continue to have faith in Him?
I can say I am doing quite well in this as because I faced a lot of problems these days and lost a lot of things. But I didn't blame God but continue to pray more to Him and trust Him. End up, things are getting better now. We are all blessed and loved by God, so we have to love God also.
Start from the first week of 2009, every Saturday and Sunday I will go church. Last year, Sunday I don't have to go church so I can work on Sunday. Now since every Sunday I want to go church to worship God, therefore I got lesser time to work on weekends to get replacement leave.
This week I have no choice but Saturday and Sunday also I need to go to work. But thank God that I can still arrange my time just nice for church and work. Saturday morning go work, then rush to church. Sunday morning go church and afternoon rush back to work then at night rush back to church for followship night dinner. Wow!!! What a busy week for me....
Alright, I want to start my emo blogging already. Recently my days are very suck. Everything just changed and just not nice. People around me are just sucks, no matter is those who are not close or those who are very very close. They are just so disappointing. Oh well, maybe I shouldn't care too much about them, I should focus more on God.
My baby used to tell me one thing, "if you love God, God will teach you how to love others." Well, very true right? But can we do it? Even he himself can not do it, but he said this out. Trust me, I am trying very hard now because I love God more and more everyday.
Wen Cheong's msn asked: How much do you love God? I said I don't know how much. Because it is uncountable. If it is countable, that means I love God still not enough. So my answer is I don't know.
Yesterday I learned about Gospel of Prosperous. It means once you believe in God, everything around you will become wonderful, God will blessed everything you have and you do. But it doesn't exit at all. Hooi Ling said: being a Christian is not easy, but very hard and with many troubles. But still we choosed to be a Christian because we believe in God and we trust him. Everything is already in his plan, and if God wants us to suffer, He has his purpose in it.
So...... Be strong and firm. :)
All my long lost readers, how are all of you. I miss you all very much. Well, I know I am talking to myself because I abandoned this blog too long, no more readers la!!!But who cares, this is my blog, whenever I want, I can always come back here and blog.
Today is the first day of year 2009. Can it consider as a totally brand new year for me? I hope so. Many things changes in my life. But if can, I will wish those good things don't change, I wish they will remain the same. But once change, can u-turn back?
In this brand new year, I want to learn to love God more. As after I learn to love God more, I can solve every problems I face, and after I love God more, then only I will know how to love myself more and love the people around me more.
I am so heartbroken. I don't know why. I am just so heartbroken. I never know it is so hard to ask people buy coupon. RM10 very expensive meh? But I think RM10 really a lot, that can prove to me how ugly is one's heart. Because of don't want to pay that RM10, they can come out many reasons, and reject me, and shake their heads like almost want to drop.
Sigh.... I am sucks.....
I almost die just now. Almost kill by a crazy lorry... Haha!!! God just saved me...
I am so sorry to say this. I feel so bad.
I WANT TO ABANDON THIS BLOG. :(
Because I have another blog. But who knows, maybe one day you will find a new entry here. Hehe!!!!
My new blog - cyrusvien.blogspot.com
But it is still under construction now. Please be patient!!!
I made this promise.
I will not see. I will not hear. I will not say. I will not care.
Do not SEE.
Do not HEAR.
Do not SAY.
DO NOT CARE.
I am sure I can do that. No worry. Everything will be alright.
I had a bad day yesterday, but I think it continue until today. How bad was my yesterday?
I didn't have a sweet night because I just wake up non stop. It was a Sunday but I have to work. I woke up at 7am, why? Not because of work but because I want to go to church before I go to work. Though I did not sleep well, but thank God that I was not sleepy during that 2 hours in church. Chit chatting a while with them, I had to leave for work. I reached Times Square at 11:30pm, I thought I am early, but I miscalculate the time, that is why I have to work until 7:30pm to make it 8 hours to get a replacement leave for family camp. Yesterday I worked alone, stand by for the performance alone. But actually I had nothing to do except sitting there and enjoy the performance. But I did not enjoy at all because it was boring. During my free time, hide myself in the office and watch drama series. Morning I ate bread. Afternoon I bought mee and hide in my office to eat. And I just don't know why I felt very sleepy when I work. Totally no energy at all. Today I have neck ache and my hand suddenly just feel very pain.
Basically whole 8 hours except during performance, I was just hiding in my office without the aircon on. The show ended around 6:45pm but I can not go home, waited until 7:45pm then only I went home. It is too late to have my dinner so I did not eat my dinner. When I went home, the sky was totally very dark.
Then when I reached home, car is out of petrol, I went to 2 petrol stations. But guess what. Both Shell also habis petrol (The green one). Until this morning, I went to 3 Shell pun habis, 1 Shell even closed down for renovation. But my car is out of petrol, so how? I have no choice to feed him Petronas which I never do that before. I only feed him Shell.
Can you imagine how I feel? Haha!
My house got a new member -------- A Jogging Machine. It's been here for like 2 weeks plus, but until today only I have time to jog on it. I really can't remember how long I haven't exercise. Just now I used around 21 minutes to job 1km. It is so tiring. Believe me, once I stopped, I felt like fainting, felt like floating in the sky when I was walking. I think I need more exercise.
It is so cool to sweat. Feel so recharged. But one think I must remind all of you, once you finished exercising and you sweat, even it just sweat a bit, you must dry yourself first before going for your bath. If you bath with your sweat still on your skin, you will have white spot on your skin. It is not healthy. So dry yourself with a fan after you sweat before you go for your bath.
I am drying myself now. :)
This song is just so meaningful and I love this song very much.
作词：邬裕康 作曲：杨阳 编曲：杨阳
我要 相信你是爱我的 我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的 我怎么等
我要 相信你是爱我的 不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里 总有太多泪 不停拉扯
I Can Do Nothing!
Always, I can't choose at all.
Always, I have no right to say no.
Always, I can't complain.
Always, I have to agree with others.
Always, I have to follow what others say.
Always, always, and always.
I feel so uncomfortable to everyone now. No matter in office, at home or outside. No matter to strangers, to those not so close, to friends or even to those I love.
What is an executive for? What is an executive's job scope? Prepare all the paperworks? Meet client?
Ya, all of the above. PLUS you are paid to get scolded by manager, general manager, big boss. That's not all yet. You are paid to get scolded by client too. So you are hanging in the middle. Boss wants you to treat client bad, then you will get scolded by client. When client made noise to boss, you will get scolded by boss.
I am being so hopeless these days. I am facing many problems which I don't think I can solve it myself. Problems are prepared for us to learn more and improve more. But I am just feeling hopeless. Having many questions in my mind these days.
I always ask myself this question. Why do we have to work so hard to earn money? For some emergency that will happen in future? For buying something we like? For traveling? For other people?
For me, other than daily expenses and for dad and mom and car, I save all my money. It's been almost 5 months I never buy any things for myself. I always think that I should save all these money for future. But when is the future? Isn't it we should spend when we earn to make ourselves happy? Saving money is more important or spending money for ourselves are more important?
And I always ask myself, why can't things be as simple as it can? I am a simple girl and I wan everything to be simple. I don't like to think too much. I just want a simple yet happy life. Complicated doesn't suit me. Is simple happy life really that hard to have?
Another question is, what are we living for? Nowadays it is like I don't enjoy my day, but I just wish to pass everyday faster and tomorrow faster come. And looking forward for another tomorrow again. What is the purpose of living? When we were still a baby, we were looking forward to grow up, go to school. When we were studying in primary school, we looked forward to enter secondary school. Then looked forward to enter college. When we were still studying in college, we looked forward to start work. And now when we have already started to work, what do we look for again? Seriously, I don't know what am I looking forward now.
By having so many questions in my mind, simple is still not with me...
A Letter to Her!
Yea yea, this is a letter to HER. It's a her. Why? Simply because I owe her one.
I am kinda touched when I saw you wrote a letter for me. Feel like crying. When I recall back, actually we got close only when we practiced for song fest if I am not mistaken. We just suddenly being so friend and now we always stick together and even we chit chat more and almost everything. I am happy that I have you when I am sad. And actually I am even more happy when I can make you feel you are so blessed. No worry, whenever I am not happy, I will sure go and fan you. But during that time you better don't blame me fan ya?
* Sudah tak ada owe you already!!!
Birthday Boy & Gal!
Not to forget we had a small celebration for Linus and Ee May for their birthday!
Outing to Taman Botani!
Last Saturday, the outing for Group Gideon is to Taman Botani, Putrajaya. It sounds far but it didn't take us long hours to reach there. We rent bicycles and cycle there, we walked around, snapped pictures, and also eating non stop.
The bicycle seat is so hard that made my butt pain for few days. Now, I am scare of cycling. Don't ever ask me cycle this kind of bicycle anymore.
And now, pictures time...
Congratulation to Yen!
My best secondary school buddy got marry on 31st August 2008 (M'sia National Day). Among my friend, she is the first one who get marry. This shows that more and more red card is going to send to me soon, and I am enough old also.
I heard that she cried the next day she got marry because she missed home. Silly girl, don't cry, must be happy always ok?
4 Unique Commanders!
Church Alone Day - but we are not alone. 4 cute commanders planned us a great day. They even wasted time in creating a new look for themselves. Most ah pek look referees.
Finally, I am back from my break. I should continue to blog again, if not I will lose the interest in blogging.
Let me show you some additional pictures of Song Fest 6.
My job is getting tougher and tougher. I need to rest. I need to pray more for forgiveness from God. I need a day to close myself in my room. I need a day to be alone....
A Letter to My Baby!
Petra Song Fest 6 - Champion Group Gideon!
Eternity, Tuhan adalah kekuatanku & You raise me up.
Why so downcast?
Petra Song Fest 6?
I present to you this cute little one - our Keegan Boy!!!!
Bukit Tinggi Trip!
A long waiting post. Basically I don't feel like want to post about this trip but because I have some funny pictures that I would like to share with you all, that is why this entry appears.
There you go, Group Gideon had a group trip to Bukit Tinggi to have a good fellowship with each another. We had one night stay then we went to rabbit farm and French Colmar the next day before going back home.
I am actually very scare.
It was very cold there.
Nice view huh?
There comes the silly part.....
Soomantha was waiting for Sam JenRuw....
Suddenly Linus appeared, Soomantha gave up SamJenRuw and tackled Linus.
Because Linus is too cute, so I couldn't control myself and tackled him too.... Hahaha!!!!
Swam swam bring the end to this silly entry...